The Final Push

10. More. Days.

The past two days have been a struggle.  Cardio twice a day and trying to maintain heavy lifting is so hard when your diet is so limited.  I am getting excited that peak week is almost here and while I'm sure that will be a somewhat miserable time, it will also be an exciting time.  I don't mean to complain about something that I have decided to do, I just never realized it would be THIS difficult.

The past few months have been awesome and difficult all at once.  I am afraid that I may have missed out on many opportunities with friends that may only come around once in a lifetime.  My first year of grad school has turned into a year of being anti-social.  But, I have learned SO MUCH about myself.  And about my abilities.  If I can accomplish something like this, what can't I do with hard work and dedication?  This was a dream that I had that I never thought I would actually try and attempt to live out.  And here I am. Ten days out from an NPC Figure Competition.  All of the hard work and the healthy choices lead up to 10 days from now.  And I am ready.

I am currently an emotional, tired wreck. Last night I decided there was no way I could compete. I'm not muscular or lean enough.  Then I went to the gym for round #2 and after kicking my own butt, I was a believer again.  This morning I am trying to find the motivation to walk next door and start my workout.  I'll get there, and once I'm done I will be back to motivated Heather.  It's just getting there and getting through the workout that is hard at this point.  After that, I'm happy and feeling good.

I just have to keep the final goal in mind.  Ten more days.